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Discussion in 'Residential Areas' started by Ashes, Jan 3, 2019.

  1. Ashes
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    WELP THIS JUST GOT INTERESTING.

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    Once everything was settled and in place as before, Nix slumped back in his stance, looking at Luna through thoughtful eyes.

    "I'm sorry, haha, it was just.... it's a bit weird to say out loud, but I guess i freaked out or something. I uh..."

    The room went quiet for a minute, as Nix collected his thoughts.

    "Hah."

    Was it even worth explaining? The moment was over, and done with, and it was just tiring bringing it back out and explaining what it was. Yet his mind wondered if Luna would take offense to the tight-lip thing and sort of completely give him the cold shoulder. Because if she thought anything like how he thought girls thought, she would think it was her fault, and god damn him if he was gonna let her think that.

    That thought soon overpowered any other choice, and he breathed in, letting all tension out in a sigh.

    "It wasn't anything you did, I swear. I just... I wanna explain it so if it happens again... if I freak out again... you know what's happening. Is.... is that okay?"

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    Luna stood there for a while as Nix stood there. They were silent for a bit before he spoke up.

    "I'm sorry, haha, it was just..."

    What..? What could he be sorry for? He didn't do anything wrong...He went on to explain that it wasn't Luna's fault at all. But that he just wanted to explain. So she knew what was happening for a next time if there was a next time. Which she sincerely hoped there wasn't a next time...She didn't want Nix to feel more horrible than he already was. It was clear he felt bad for doing it in front of Luna, but what could he have done?

    "Of course it's okay! I'm here for you if you need me yeah? Just know there's nothing wrong with you doing it in front of me if it does happen again. I'm not here to beat you down, I'm here to bring you up," Luna replied, giving Nix a kind smile.

    She sat down on the couch and gently patted the spot right next to her, beckoning him to also sit. Hopefully it'd help him relax...Maybe she should get him some chamomile tea. Or maybe not...It could be best for him to get it out of his system now rather than wait since it was at the front of his mind. Afterwards then.



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    Nix took a deep breath and prepared to word-vomit. Because he knew for a fact that once he started...

    Yeah.

    He didn't know if he could hold it together, but he was willing to try. Maybe he could... shorten it or something. That way, he could skip out on all the... shit that happened.

    "Well, um... I... heh. I have those little freakouts because, er.... well.. I guess you could call it deja-vu? I... uh. It's hard to explain, but I'm gonna try anyway. Well, there was this person in the cave,"

    who died

    "... And I knew her really well and she um..."

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    Freakouts having to do with some sort of deja-vu? Luna wondered if Nix meant something along the lines of a trigger causing a panic attack of some kind. Like what some PTSD episodes can be. It was kind of what he had done but...she really didn't want to give him a 'diagnosis' when it wasn't even a real diagnosis at all. It was just a guess.
    Either way, this was really worrying. Nix couldn't talk very well, he had trouble putting thoughts to words it seemed like, so Luna wanted to be there for him as much as possible. She gently grabbed his hands and rubbed the top of them with her thumb on each hand, trying to ground him into the now.

    "Breathe buddy...In the nose, out the mouth, okay..? Take your time..."

    To get him going, Luna breathed in the way she instructed. Into the nose, out of the mouth. She continued gently massaging his hands as she did so.

    "She what, Nix..? Breathe..."



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    WELP THIS JUST GOT INTERESTING.

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    "I'm okay, it's just kinda hard to explain." He tried to slip his hand out from between hers, but he didn't wanna be too rude, so he just kept it there.

    He cleared his throat, and started again.

    "She, um... didn't make it out, and um. She was trying her best, but uh. It's just, she rubbed my head a lot, which I guess was kinda - " he laughed neverosly here- "weird... o-on her part. Anyway, she did a lot of that and... yeah. So when that happened, I, um. I remembered her. That's um. That's it."

     
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    Luna thought back to a time when she lost people. Many. Many people. He lost someone dear to him, and she lost people dear to her. She stopped massaging Nix's hands and sat back, thinking about what he said for a moment before speaking.

    "I-I'm sorry that that happened to you...Having lost people as well that's...I can see..."

    She was trying to find words to say but it was hard to. Thoughts about what to say strayed to her own losses, and it wasn't going away. Like it usually did when something reminded her of them all.

    Luna sighed and shook her head to try and clear it. Of course, it didn't really work. "I a-apologize heh, I can't seem to speak right...Nix, I'm s-sorry I did something that reminded you of her. If it helps, I-I won't do it again. I hope I can c-cheer you up to some degree when this happens again...when you need me."

    As she pulled her hands away from his, Luna considered something...It tended to work for her, though sometimes she was sometimes unwilling to help herself during the worst of them... But maybe it would help Nix? What could she distract him with...Well, besides what they were just doing. Playing that fighting game, unless that's what he wanted to do..? Might as well ask...I can't think about it...stop...

    "I always thought it helped me sometimes when I'm...d-depressed...but do you think a distraction of some kind would help you out of the dump? I c-could make us some chamomile tea and bring up a comedy show on Setflix if you'd like. Something with... y-your rubbish humor, pun kind of intended." She hoped the joke lightened the mood somewhat. She was never good at cheering others up with just words when she was like this...

    Luna tried her best to breathe to calm down but she was still sweating some. That she couldn't stop. Not here...please not here...NOT now...stop it...



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    "It's okay - it's not your fault. You can do whatever you want I just... uh. "

    Nix breathed a sigh.

    "I've always kinda dealt with it myself, honestly. Ame wasn't there for all of it, so she doesn't really get why..... but I always patch myself up and usually that's that. I guess it's weird that way. But it's got nothing to do with you doing what you do....."

    It was kinda cathartic to talk about it, honestly. Having someone who really understood aside from his sister nearby? Even more so. The thought of going back to his apartment appalled him, but to ask more of the already-generous Luna would be even more so. And she was offering to make him tea and cheer him up.. . things he did himself to patch himself up.

    Speaking of patching up, Nix glanced up, catching wind of Luna's breathing. He could tell his little recount had sent her into her own spiral.

    And he could not have that.

    He cleared his throat and spoke in a much happier tone - one Luna was more used to. It was the tone he used everyday.

    "Hey! Tea sounds great! And I heard there's a new comedy on Setflix that sounds fuckin' amazing."

    Hopefully, it would be enough to distract Luna.
     
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    She remembered what hyperventilation feels like. While Luna wasn't doing it then, she certainly felt it beginning to start. Her chest was barely getting to the point where it was just noticeably painful to breathe.

    "Y-yeah, but it is my fault and-" breathe in, "-I just...I want to be there for you and cheer you up and I'm glad I can do that I'm sorry you had to do it by yourself all this time-" long breath out.

    Luna slapped her leg to stop herself. She held her breath to get her thoughts back together for a moment and took a big breath in to finish it off. In the nose, out the mouth.

    "...Sorry...I...yeah...I'll go make that tea and you can get Setflix set up if you want."

    She needed to get out of there, to the kitchen, give herself something to occupy her mind. The explosions, feathers were strewn everywhere, red, cloudy dead eyes...NO. STOP. STOP IT. Luna was trying to cheer up Nix. Why was she breaking down now? Why, why, why-



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    Yeah, he kinda figured. Of course it would send Luna reeling - she'd mentioned it led her to think of her own losses - and the worst feeling was having someone thee but not for you. Even if they were moving around and shit.
    Not on his watch. He sidled over to Luna, hip resting on the side of the counter, and took her hand.
    "Luna. It's okay.. yeah? You're gonna be okay. I promise. We're gonna watch a funny movie, and we're gonna laugh. And I, personally, will not leave until you laugh."
    To prove his point, he looked up and made the most goofy face he could imagine.
     
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    Luna was definitely beginning to hyperventilate as she heard Nix go into the kitchen with her. Why was he in here why did he follow her why-

    "Fire flashes explosions sister dead-"

    Holy fuck where was her brain going? What was she saying?

    Luna breathe, you need to breathe.

    All she could say to Solaris in response was a repeated 'shutupshutupshutupshutup', and it wouldn't stop. She caught bits and pieces of what Nix said about 'its okays' and 'promise' and 'funny movie'. The hyperventilation started to get physically obvious. Luna felt that she didn't deserve this kindness from him. She felt guilty because he LITERALLY came to HER HOUSE to pretty much ask for her help in cheering him up. She felt that she couldn't...no, shouldn't, get any sort of help. It was stupid...stupid...Why did he have her hand...

    Stupidstupidstupidstupidsisterdead?

    Calm down, breathe, please, Nix is here, listen to him PLEASE.

    Luna looked into Nix's eyes and she knew immediately she shouldn't have. The goofy look he had on his face...It made her giggle for a split second but...The tears...they wouldn't stop anymore...She felt her mouth grow into a smile but then fall into a pained frown in barely enough time to register that the smile was even there.

    "W...ater...I...c..an't..."



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