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Tired. That's all Ishvi felt after Rowan left him alone with his thoughts. He considered letting go of the small melanite statue in his hands, but feeling the pain of his burns full force would not stop the memories. And even numb he was not about to fall asleep. He wasn't sure what he hated more about this situation - lying helpless and bandaged up in the hospital, IV in his arm, or the fact that the nurses insisted he stay in nightmare form because his wing had been injured and his stress shifting was making it hard for the bandages to stay in place when he tried to stay out of it.

At least the way he was lying, head propped up to see the room's entrance, and the amount of bandages meant it was hard to tell what form he was in.

Ishvi sighed when he heard a knock, the nurse asking if he was up for a visitor. He thought it was Rowan coming back, and as grateful as he was for someone coming to see him, he was reluctant to face the boy again so soon after their previous conversation. But he realized Rowan must be lonely too, so he called out, "They can come in."

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All-day, Naisis had a craving for bunnies. Not for food (because she is an herbivore) but a plushie. Naisis had no idea why, but she has a definite suspicion on who was behind it: Avax Set. Occasionally he suggests an action the other would not think of, but for a good reason. This had all the earmarks of being that. With a sigh, she decided to humor him.

Finding the nearest toyshop, she headed in only to be confronted with a discounted pile of purple rabbit plushies. She laughed and shook her head. That is when she felt that all too familiar hand on her shoulder and an equally familiar voice whisper in her ear, "his favorite color." She also felt something slipping into one of her pockets. She looked back; sure, he would not be there.

Well, he has sent her on another mission. This one she will accept. The one time she turned down one of his tasks, disaster struck, and millions died. Picking up a plushie, she headed to the cashier, bought it, and put it in a bag. She became aware that although she had the rabbit, she had no idea who it was for. Aha! Putting down the bag, she fished through that pocket to find a piece of paper. On it were the name Ishvi and the room number in the hospital. She was surprised with the purple bunny; it was not what she would suspect an Angel or Nightmare would be interested in. Shoving the paper back into her pocket and picking up the bag, she headed to the hospital.

Things became more difficult with the recent loss of her left arm, such as signing things (since she was lefthanded). Fortunately, the cashier was kind enough to hold the receipt while she awkwardly signed with her right hand.

Reaching the hospital, she was led to the room Ishvi was in. Stepping inside, she was surprised that he was still in Nightmare form. She had heard some about what happened after she got trapped, and, from the looks of it, he might have been there at the end.

"Ishvi, I heard you have been hurt and came to visit. Oh," she handed him the bag with the rabbit plushie, "I was told you might like this."
 
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"Naisis?" Having expected someone else, it took him a moment to process who his visitor was. Then he noticed her arm, or lack thereof. "You're hurt." Ishvi felt a flash of guilt. She must have been injured when the dragon arrived. Now that he thought about it, he didn't recall seeing her during the battle with the prince, though he had been admittedly distracted at the time.

Holding the statue numbed the pain enough that he was able to take the bag she handed him. Mostly taking it because he was surprised. He certainly did not think he deserved a gift. Even then he couldn't open it one handed, only seeing something purple.

"What - what's this for? Are you okay? "
 

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Naisis was still limping and hurting from her ordeal. Seeing Ishvi was in a similar situation, she opened the bag and pulled out the rabbit putting it in his lap.

"So are you. I understand it is customary to bring a gift when visiting a friend in the hospital."

She sets down then glances at her missing arm. "I lost this on my way to Aezjtdaenr. I fell into a hole. When I woke up, I was in the animal hospital being patched up. They could not save my leg er arm."

Fortunately for her, she was unconscious and did not know of the times she should have been in the morgue.

With a chuckle, she added, "well, so much for my fun," she rolled her eyes, accenting the sarcasm, "times in that place. How are you feeling?"

Although she suspected he had a story to tell, he did not look like he was up to it or even wanted to.
 

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For a moment Ishvi just stared at the bunny, wondering if he was having some sort of sleep deprived hallucination. He looked up at Naisis, back to the purple rabbit, back to Naisis. Then he tentatively reached out to poke at it. It was soft and certainly felt like he was probably not dreaming it.

"It's a purple bunny.." He was too surprised to do more than state the obvious "... Who told you I might like this? " He did, but he also didn't know anyone who would know that. Ishvi patted the fluffy toy, "I appreciate it." Adding with a guilty voice and ignoring that he couldn't really move, "I didn't get you anything. "

Ishvi winced at her story. "I should have done more. I should have... I don't know. People were hurt and I missed the end of the fight. The prince - I tried to fly him away from everyone, to stop him. I failed again..." His voice trailed off and he did let go of the statue, shivering as the pain returned.

In spite of how he felt, burned and bandaged, Ishvi's answer was not a lie. "I have been through worse. "
 

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That look on Ishvi's face was all so familiar to Naisis., being a creature of illusions and deceptions. Anytime she did something real, she usually got that look.

She smiled, "I can assure you it is quite real."

His blunt remark made her laugh, "Well, I hope so since that is what I paid for." she looked upward and replied softly, "A little pony told me."

She grinned when Ishvi said he appreciated it, "Thank you."

Her face softens, "You are not supposed to, but thank you for the thought."

But, when he headed down that path of self-blame, one she knew very well, she was first appalled, then became somber. He did not need a lecture, but understanding.

When he finished, her face became somber as she leaned forward and replied in a calm, authoritative voice, "Exactly - you don't know and never will. This should-of, would-of, could-of is nothing more than a deception. Learn from your past - yes - but do not live in them; they will destroy you."

She sat back in her chair. Her face softened, as did her voice, "After what I thought was a failure, someone a lot wiser and powerful than I gave me this advice: As long as you try your best, you will not fail. You might not accomplish what you were hoping. But as long as you try to do something, it might not be your best; you will never be a failure."

She paused and looked down, ashamed, in a little louder than a whisper, "It is when you do nothing you fail."

Naisis looked towards the ceiling rolling her eyes and shaking her head, "Great! Here I am supposed to be lifting your spirits. I am talking all gloom and doom."

She put on her friendliest face, "So what is the prognosis? How long until you can leave? And, after they let you go, would you mind if I take you out for dinner? From what I have heard, hospital food is not all that great."
 

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Even more befuddled by Naisis's response, since he was pretty sure he didn't know any ponies, Ishvi stayed silent. He brought the bunny a little closer but resisted the urge to cuddle the soft toy - that would be a bit too embarrassing. Maybe it had been a customer.

Ishvi frowned behind his bandages though it was hard to tell. But again he didn't speak. He hated his helplessness, but he didn't want to accidentally insult Naisis for bringing him a gift.

Once he had let go of the statue, the pain made it a little harder to concentrate. Holding onto numbness didn't feel right with someone trying to comfort him once again. "I already fe- I already failed. I tried to fix things and only made everything worse."

Hurting too much to do much more than lift his head a little, Ishvi just sighed. "You don't have to do this. I don't know when I'll get out... Last time..."

His voice broke a little and he added, "I won't die from it... why are you being so nice to me? You saw..."
 

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Naisis smile as Ishvi all but snuggled up to the purple bunny. Evidentially she had made the right choice. But, she had to admit, she had a lot of help.

She could see some confusion in him, but that was not surprising. She was from a world where chaos and anarchy were everyday occurrences. So, being a bit confusing was normal for her. Still, she could keep it to a minimum.

She saw the pain in Ishvi's eyes when he let go of the statue. Picking it up, she realized why.

Putting it in his lap, she remarked, "There is a lot of pain in this life. None of it is necessary."

But when he once again delved into self-pity, she shook her head, "There was no way you or anybody could make it worst. It was already that bad when we got there. It has been going on for centuries, if not millennia. I honestly doubt we could have made it any worst or better, for that matter. "

She sighed a bit downhearted, "The best we could hope for was to end it."

She looked up and smiled, "Ah yes, but it is those things you do because you want to that has true value."

She rose a bemused brow and chuckled, "Well, this is different. Most of the time, I am criticized for being too mean. This is the first time I have been accused of being too nice."

She sat back and smiled, "I kind of like it. You can accuse me of being too nice all you want."
 

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When Naisis plunked the statue back onto his lap, Ishvi felt obligated to hold it again. The numbness made it easier to concentrate on the conversation anyway, though he wasn't certain he wanted to. "I know I couldn't have fixed things there. Wars... I meant before. Everything... I just remembered the last time I was burnt. At least that time no one else was hurt. "

Ishvi shook his head as much as he was able with all the bandages. "I don't understand why you'd want to spend time with me. Whenever I get out of here. I'm not the best at..." He made a vague gesture, barely lifting his arm. "Social things."

"And I didn't exactly accuse you of being too nice... I asked why you were.. maybe it's the same thing. How can you be nice after seeing, after seeing my soul? It's- I injured it. That seems like a bad thing."
 

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Naisis sighed. She knew how frustrating it could be to do your best and have it fail.

She smiled, "well, for one thing, I like you. Also, you can not be any more socially inept than I am. Being the Queen of Terror, I do not get invited to many social events."

She nodded, "so you did. Well, I like being nice. It is my means to combat the evil inside."

She became somber as she raised a brow, "Oh? Are you that bad? And, how did you injured it? I thought it was already wounded. I have seen worst, mine for one. One does not become the Queen of Terror by being nice. Nor did I become it by choice. Azure corrupted me."
 
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