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    #1 Sarrain, Feb 27, 2018
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    Shay shakily took the phone and dialed Valli's number. It was fine to call him in emergencies, wasn't it? Was this the right number? She hovered over the call button before hitting it and pulling the phone to her ear, trying to control her breathing.

     
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    Valli had an office number, but for patients who he'd had for more than a few sessions, he gave out his phone number. It was for emergencies, and he was clear upon its use, but if his phone rang through the emergency line, Valli dropped everything to answer.

    Just like he did then. It was late, and he was waiting for Gask to get back, but when the phone rang he immediately picked it up, answering on the second ring.

    "Shay?" He said immediately, the number familiar.

     
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    Shay couldn't speak for a few seconds, brain working overtime. Valli knew it was her? Had she used this number before? No... Caller ID? Must be. It didn't matter.

    Despite that he couldn't see them, Shay wiped the tears from her cheeks, leaving a light streak of blood in their place. She looked up at the ceiling. The light felt blinding, even though Shay knew it was dim.

    "I can– can't even die right," she told him first, voice shaky but at least not tearful. She breathed in, trying to get control of herself and failing.

    "I did a bad thing, Valli. I did a really bad thing." A sob shook her, and from where Valli was, he could hear a thump, like someone or something falling over.

     
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    It was not the first time a patient had called with a teary self-injury confession. It would not be the last. He'd prepared for it, and as Valli continued the conversation he headed over to his small bookshelf in the main room--the last vestige of the office that Gask's room had replaced--and pulled out a large binder, flopping it down on the coffee table.

    "You shouldn't be dying at all," Valli said, in his very best crisis voice. Smooth and even, and maybe a little detached. It would probably be better if he sounded just as upset as her, but Valli had never mastered that. He needed the emotional distance, and he didn't like lying.

    "Are you hurt?" Valli said immediately. "Do you need EMTs?" That came first, before anything else. Before he asked where she was or what she was doing.

     
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    "I know," she responded to his rhetorical question, slumping back further. Her side of the call was quiet for an earlier long time before Shay hiccuped, sounding muffled and perhaps somewhat distant from the phone.

    The tinkle of the sink came on, some splashing and then what sounded like something being unwrapped before Shay's voice was there again.

    "No. I can take care of it." Shay made a sharp inhale, and she sprayed something and tore apart a box.

    "Doc," her voice drew out like she had more to add, but it took her a moment to continue anything. "I killed a guy. A month ago. I went to the correctional island... and I can't stop thinking about it. I can't commit suicide without coming back. I can't have things be the way they used to.... what can I do? I got nowhere to go. I can't do this anymore."

     
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    Valli had known. Sort of. He'd been given some information as part of Shay's mandatory therapy. He'd been told she'd been involved in a fight, killed someone in self defense, and then framed it to look like a hate crime. A bizarre sequence of events, but normaly enough for Manta Carlos. He hadn't been given any more details then that, just the utter basics, but it was enough to help him fill in the blanks as Shay spoke.

    "Humans can't ever go back. Not even immortals can. Life is about change, and every minute that we live, we change more. We can't go back and undo our actions or experiences, so all we can do is change the course of our lives to end up in the place we want to be."

    Had she attempted already, and just failed? Or was she on the verge of it? Even if she would come back, it was still a bad thing, still a risk.

    "You still have people who care about you, and places to go, and things to do. You feel alone right now, but you aren't alone, and I want you to remember that. Try and take deep breaths, and every time you breath in, think about someone who you care about."

     
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    It made Shay unreasonably angry to think about the future or other people. All she'd been doing was thinking about them. She'd thought about them so long and so hard that all those memories were warped into something dark and disgusting.

    Though Valli couldn't see it, Shay held her head and tugged gently at her hair, letting the sting bring her back. She was struggling to breathe, and her skin felt too hot. Everything was too hot and cramped here. Stuck in this stupid house. Stuck in this stupid life. Never escaping and going around and around in this fucked up rut.

    "I'm already thinking about them," she snapped. "All I've been doing is thinking about them. I can't think of anything else. That's the fucking problem."

     
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    A different tack, then. Valli checked the clock as he headed to the closet, digging out his coat.

    "Should I come over?" He asked. It was late, yes, but he'd never been one to turn down an urgent house call, and it wasn't as if Shay could just go out at night so late. Not with her situation. So if anything, he'd have to go to her.

    "What have you been doing with your time?" Valli asked. "Hobbies? Catching up on TV? Something to occupy your hands?" It was good to have distractions after such a severe change of schedule, but most importantly: He was getting her talking. Talking about things other than her misery, to let her relax.

     
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    "Not really," Shay admitted, before adding, "I wouldn't know what coming over could do. Damage is done." Shay coughed and hiccuped, the dry sounds of coming down from a hard cry. She sucked in a sharp breath when she moved.

    "Why'd I even have to do it? Now everything is ruined." Shay groaned, moved from one section of the house to the other. The kitchen, where she shuffled through cabinets until she found something with a cork and popped it.

    After a long drink, Shay coughed again and whined lowly to herself. "Gods." A beat of silence, and more to herself, Shay said, "I guess I could just stay in Limbo..."

     
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    Had Shay already died and come back? That was what it was sounding like, but he was worried about asking. Limbo was a sensitive subject, and sounding like someone who was digging around for personal details was a real risk.

    It didn't directly matter, so it didn't ask.

    "You should reach out to those you trust, to have someone come over and sit with you. Just having someone in the room can be helpful. It's comforting, and the reason I do so many of my sessions in person."

    If not him, then someone else. He could name the names he'd heard in her sessions, but there was no telling what they were like. Who had cut her off? It was all but inevitable that there would be, at a minimum, some hurt feelings. People who said they needed time to process.

    "Time heals all wounds, Shay. People will forgive, and people will forget, and this will fade from memory entirely. What feels like something of monumental importance now will one day be nothing more than a memory."

     


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